Hush, Hush Chapter 2

CHAPTER 2
MY MOM AND I LIVE IN A DRAFTY EIGHTEENTHcentury
farmhouse on the outskirts of
Coldwater. It’s the only house on Hawthorne Lane, and the nearest neighbors are almost a mile away. I
sometimes wonder if the original builder realized that out of all the plots of land available, he chose to
construct the house in the eye of a mysterious atmospheric inversion that seems to suck all the fog off
Maine’s coast and transplant it into our yard. The house was at this moment veiled by gloom that
resembled escaped and wandering spirits.
I spent the evening planted on a stool in the kitchen in the company of algebra homework and Dorothea,
our housekeeper. My mom works for the Hugo Renaldi Auction Company, coordinating estate and
antique auctions all along the East Coast. This week she was in upstate New York. Her job required a
lot of travel, and she paid Dorothea to cook and clean, but I was pretty sure the fine print on Dorothea’s
job description included keeping a watchful, parental eye on me.
“How was school?” Dorothea asked with a slight German accent. She stood at the sink, scrubbing
overbaked lasagna off a casserole dish.
“I have a new biology partner.”
“This is a good thing, or a bad thing?”
“Vee was my old partner.”
“Humph.” More vigorous scrubbing, and the flesh on Dorothea’s upper arm jiggled. “A bad thing,
then.”
I sighed in agreement.
“Tell me about the new partner. This girl, what is she like?”
“He’s tall, dark, and annoying.” And eerily closed off. Patch’s eyes were black orbs. Taking in
everything and giving away nothing. Not that I wanted to know more about Patch. Since I hadn’t liked
what I’d seen on the surface, I doubted I’d like what was lurking deep inside.
Only, this wasn’t exactly true. I’d liked a lot of what I’d seen. Long, lean muscles down his arms, broad
but relaxed shoulders, and a smile that was part playful, part seductive. I was in an uneasy alliance with
myself, trying to ignore what had started to feel irresistible.
At nine o’clock Dorothea finished for the evening and locked up on her way out. I flashed the porch
lights twice to say goodbye;
they must have penetrated the fog, because she answered with a honk. I
was alone.
I took inventory of the feelings playing out inside me. I wasn’t hungry. I wasn’t tired. I wasn’t even all
that lonely. But I was a little bit restless about my biology assignment. I’d told Patch I wouldn’t call,
and six hours ago I’d meant it. All I could think now was that I didn’t want to fail. Biology was my
toughest subject. My grade tottered problematically between A and B. In my mind, that was the
difference between a full and half scholarship in my future.
I went to the kitchen and picked up the phone. I looked at what was left of the seven numbers still
tattooed on my hand. Secretly I hoped Patch didn’t answer my call. If he was unavailable or uncooperative
on assignments, it was evidence I could use against him to convince Coach to undo the
seating chart. Feeling hopeful, I keyed in his number.
Patch answered on the third ring. “What’s up?”
In a matteroffact
tone I said, “I’m calling to see if we can meet tonight. I know you said you’re busy,
but—”
“Nora.” Patch said my name like it was the punch line to a joke. “Thought you weren’t going to call.
Ever.”
I hated that I was eating my words. I hated Patch for rubbing it in. I hated Coach and his deranged
assignments. I opened my mouth, hoping something smart would come out. “Well? Can we meet or
not?”
“As it turns out, I can’t.”
“Can’t, or won’t?”
“I’m in the middle of a pool game.” I heard the smile in his voice. “An important pool game.”
From the background noise I heard on his end, I believed he was telling the truth—about the pool
game. Whether it was more important than my assignment was up for debate.
“Where are you?” I asked.
“Bo’s Arcade. It’s not your kind of hangout.”
“Then let’s do the interview over the phone. I’ve got a list of questions right—”
He hung up on me.
I stared at the phone in disbelief, then ripped a clean sheet of paper from my notebook. I scribbled Jerk
on the first line. On the line beneath it I added, Smokes cigars. Will die of lung cancer. Hopefully soon.
Excellent physical shape.
I immediately scribbled over the last observation until it was illegible.
The microwave clock blinked to 9:05. As I saw it, I had two choices. Either I fabricated my interview
with Patch, or I drove to Bo’s Arcade. The first option might have been tempting, if I could just block
out Coach’s voice warning that he’d check all answers for authenticity. I didn’t know enough about
Patch to bluff my way through a whole interview. And the second option? Not even remotely tempting.
I delayed making a decision long enough to call my mom. Part of our agreement for her working and
traveling so much was that I act responsibly and not be the kind of daughter who required constant
supervision. I liked my freedom, and I didn’t want to do anything to give my mom a reason to take a
pay cut and get a local job to keep an eye on me.
On the fourth ring her voice mail picked up.
“It’s me,” I said. “Just checking in. I’ve got some biology homework to finish up, then I’m going to bed.
Call me at lunch tomorrow, if you want. Love you.”
After I hung up, I found a quarter in the kitchen drawer. Best to leave complicated decisions to fate.
“Heads I go,” I told George Washington’s profile, “tails I stay.” I flipped the quarter in the air, flattened
it to the back of my palm, and dared a peek. My heart squeezed out an extra beat, and I told myself I
wasn’t sure what it meant.
“It’s out of my hands now,” I said.
Determined to get this over with as quickly as possible, I grabbed a map off the fridge, snagged my
keys, and backed my Fiat Spider down the driveway. The car had probably been cute in 1979, but I
wasn’t wild about the chocolate brown paint, the rust spreading unchecked across the back fender, or
the cracked white leather seats.
Bo’s Arcade turned out to be farther away than I would have liked, nestled close to the coast, a thirtyminute
drive. With the map flattened to the steering wheel, I pulled the Fiat into a parking lot behind a
large cinderblock
building with an electric sign flashing BO’S ARCADE, MAD BLACK PAINTBALL
& OZZ’S POOL HALL. Graffiti splashed the walls, and cigarette butts dotted the foundation. Clearly
Bo’s would be filled with future Ivy Leaguers and model citizens. I tried to keep my thoughts lofty and
nonchalant, but my stomach felt a little uneasy. Doublechecking
that I’d locked all the doors, I headed
inside.
I stood in line, waiting to get past the ropes. As the group ahead of me paid, I squeezed past, walking
toward the maze of blaring sirens and blinking lights.
“Think you deserve a free ride?” hollered a smokeroughened
voice.
I swung around and blinked at the heavily tattooed cashier. I said, “I’m not here to play. I’m looking for
someone.”
He grunted. “You want past me, you pay.” He put his palms on the counter, where a price chart had
been ducttaped,
showing I owed fifteen dollars. Cash only.
I didn’t have cash. And if I had, I wouldn’t have wasted it to spend a few minutes interrogating Patch
about his personal life. I felt a flush of anger at the seating chart and at having to be here in the first
place. I only needed to find Patch, then we could hold the interview outside. I was not going to drive all
this way and leave emptyhanded.
“If I’m not back in two minutes, I’ll pay the fifteen dollars,” I said. Before I could exercise better
judgment or muster up a tad more patience, I did something completely out of character and ducked
under the ropes. I didn’t stop there. I hurried through the arcade, keeping my eyes open for Patch. I told
myself I couldn’t believe I was doing this, but I was like a rolling snowball, gaining speed and
momentum. At this point I just wanted to find Patch and get out.
The cashier followed after me, shouting, “Hey!”
Certain Patch was not on the main level, I jogged downstairs, following signs to Ozz’s Pool Hall. At the
bottom of the stairs, dim track lighting illuminated several poker tables, all in use. Cigar smoke almost
as thick as the fog enveloping my house clouded the low ceiling. Nestled between the poker tables and
the bar was a row of pool tables. Patch was stretched across the one farthest from me, attempting a
difficult bank shot.
“Patch!” I called out.
Just as I spoke, he shot his pool stick, driving it into the tabletop.
His head whipped up. He stared at
me with a mixture of surprise and curiosity.
The cashier clomped down the steps behind me, vising my shoulder with his hand. “Upstairs. Now.”
Patch’s mouth moved into another barelythere
smile. Hard to say if it was mocking or friendly. “She’s
with me.”
This seemed to hold some sway with the cashier, who loosened his grip. Before he could change his
mind, I shook off his hand and weaved through the tables toward Patch. I took the first several steps in
stride, but found my confidence slipping the closer I got to him.
I was immediately aware of something different about him. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it, but I
could feel it like electricity. More animosity?
More confidence.
More freedom to be himself. And those black eyes were getting to me. They were like magnets clinging
to my every move. I swallowed discreetly and tried to ignore the queasy tap dance in my stomach. I
couldn’t quite put my finger on it, but something about Patch wasn’t right. Something about him wasn’t
normal. Something wasn’t … safe.
“Sorry about the hangup,”
Patch said, coming beside me. “The reception’s not great down here.”
Yeah, right.
With a tilt of his head, Patch motioned the others to leave. There was an uneasy silence before anybody
moved. The first guy to leave bumped into my shoulder as he walked past. I took a step back to balance
myself and looked up just in time to receive cold eyes from the other two players as they departed.
Great. It wasn’t my fault Patch was my partner.
“Eight ball?” I asked him, raising my eyebrows and trying to sound completely sure of myself, of my
surroundings. Maybe he was right and Bo’s wasn’t my kind of place. That didn’t mean I was going to
bolt for the doors. “How high are the stakes?”
His smile widened. This time I was pretty sure he was mocking me. “We don’t play for money.”
I set my handbag on the edge of the table. “Too bad. I was going to bet everything I have against you.” I
held up my assignment, two lines already filled. “A few quick questions and I’m out of here.”
“Jerk?” Patch read out loud, leaning on his pool stick. “Lung cancer? Is that supposed to be prophetic?”
I fanned the assignment through the air. “I’m assuming you contribute to the atmosphere. How many
cigars a night? One? Two?”
“I don’t smoke.” He sounded sincere, but I didn’t buy it.
“Mmhmm,”
I said, setting the paper down between the eight ball and the solid purple. I accidentally
nudged the solid purple while writing Definitely cigars on line three.
“You’re messing up the game,” Patch said, still smiling.
I caught his eye and couldn’t help but match his smile—briefly. “Hopefully not in your favor. Biggest
dream?” I was proud of this one because I knew it would stump him. It required forethought.
“Kiss you.”
“That’s not funny,” I said, holding his eyes, grateful I didn’t stutter.
“No, but it made you blush.”
I boosted myself onto the side of the table, trying to look impassive. I crossed my legs, using my knee
as a writing board. “Do you work?”
“I bus tables at the Borderline. Best Mexican in town.”
“Religion?”
He didn’t seem surprised by the question, but he didn’t seem overjoyed by it either. “I thought you said
a few quick questions. You’re already at number four.”
“Religion?” I asked more firmly.
Patch dragged a hand thoughtfully along the line of his jaw. “Not religion … cult.”
“You belong to a cult?” I realized too late that while I sounded surprised, I shouldn’t have.
“As it turns out, I’m in need of a healthy female sacrifice. I’d planned on luring her into trusting me
first, but if you’re ready now …”
Any smile left on my face slid away. “You’re not impressing me.”
“I haven’t started trying yet.”
I edged off the table and stood up to him. He was a full head taller. “Vee told me you’re a senior. How
many times have you failed tenthgrade
biology? Once? Twice?”
“Vee isn’t my spokesperson.”
“Are you denying failing?”
“I’m telling you I didn’t go to school last year.” His eyes taunted me. It only made me more determined.
“You were truant?”
Patch laid his pool stick across the tabletop and crooked a finger for me to come closer. I didn’t. “A
secret?” he said in confidential tones. “I’ve never gone to school before. Another secret? It’s not as dull
as I expected.”
He was lying. Everyone went to school. There were laws. He was lying to get a rise out of me.
“You think I’m lying,” he said around a smile.
“You’ve never been to school, ever? If that’s true—and you’re right, I don’t think it is—what made you
decide to come this year?”
“You.”
The impulse to feel scared pounded through me, but I told myself that was exactly what Patch wanted.
Standing my ground, I tried to act annoyed instead. Still, it took me a moment to find my voice. “That’s
not a real answer.”
He must have taken a step closer, because suddenly our bodies were separated by nothing more than a
shallow margin of air. “Your eyes, Nora. Those cold, pale gray eyes are surprisingly irresistible.” He
tipped his head sideways, as if to study me from a new angle. “And that killer curvy mouth.”
Startled not so much by his comment, but that part of me responded positively to it, I stepped back.
“That’s it. I’m out of here.”
But as soon as the words were out of my mouth, I knew they weren’t true. I felt the urge to say
something more. Picking through the thoughts tangled in my head, I tried to find what it was I felt I had
to say. Why was he so derisive, and why did he act like I’d done something to deserve it?
“You seem to know a lot about me,” I said, making the understatement
of the year. “More than you
should. You seem to know exactly what to say to make me uncomfortable.”
“You make it easy.”
A spark of anger fired through me. “You admit you’re doing this on purpose?”
“This?”
“This—provoking me.”
“Say ‘provoking’ again. Your mouth looks provocative when you do.”
“We’re done. Finish your pool game.” I grabbed his pool stick off the table and pushed it at him. He
didn’t take it.
“I don’t like sitting beside you,” I said. “I don’t like being your partner. I don’t like your condescending
smile.” My jaw twitched— something that typically happened only when I lied. I wondered if I was
lying now. If I was, I wanted to kick myself. “I don’t like you,” I said as convincingly as I could, and
thrust the stick against his chest.
“I’m glad Coach put us together,” he said. I detected the slightest irony on the word “Coach,” but I
couldn’t figure out any hidden meaning. This time he took the pool stick.
“I’m working to change that,” I countered.
Patch thought this was so funny, his teeth showed through his smile. He reached for me, and before I
could move away, he untangled something from my hair.
“Piece of paper,” he explained, flicking it to the ground. As he reached out, I noticed a marking on the
inside of his wrist. At first I assumed it was a tattoo, but a second look revealed a ruddy brown, slightly
raised birthmark. It was the shape of a splattered paint drop.
“That’s an unfortunate place for a birthmark,” I said, more than a little unnerved that it was so similarly
positioned to my own scar.
Patch casually but noticeably slid his sleeve down over his wrist. “You’d prefer it someplace more
private?”
“I wouldn’t prefer it anywhere.” I wasn’t sure how this sounded and tried again. “I wouldn’t care if you
didn’t have it at all.” I tried a third time. “I don’t care about your birthmark, period.”
“Any more questions?” he asked. “Comments?”
“No.”
“Then I’ll see you in bio.”
I thought about telling him he’d never see me again. But I wasn’t going to eat my words twice in one
day.
Later that night a crack! pulled me out of sleep. With my face mashed into my pillow, I held still, all my
senses on high alert. My mom was out of town at least once a month for work, so I was used to sleeping
alone, and it had been months since I’d imagined the sound of footsteps creeping down the hall toward
my bedroom. The truth was, I never felt completely alone. Right after my dad was shot to death in
Portland while buying my mom’s birthday gift, a strange presence entered my life. Like someone was
orbiting my world, watching from a distance. At first the phantom presence had creeped me out, but
when nothing bad came of it, my anxiety lost its edge. I started wondering if there was a cosmic
purpose for the way I was feeling. Maybe my dad’s spirit was close by. The thought was usually
comforting, but tonight was different. The presence felt like ice on the skin.
Turning my head a fraction, I saw a shadowy form stretching across my floor. I flipped around to face
the window, the gauzy shaft of moonlight the only light in the room capable of casting a shadow. But
nothing was there. I squeezed my pillow against me and told myself it was a cloud passing over the
moon. Or a piece of trash blowing in the wind. Still, I spent the next several minutes waiting for my
pulse to calm down.
By the time I found the courage to get out of bed, the yard below my window was silent and still. The
only noise came from tree branches scraping against the house, and my own heart thrumming under my
skin.